《寂静岭2》--Mary给James的信
2006-07-07 20:35阅读：
In my
restless dreams, I see that
town, Silent Hill.
You promised me you'd take me
there again someday.
But you never did.
Well I'm alone there
now...
In our 'special place'...
Waiting for you...
Waiting for you to come see
me.
But you never do.
And so I wait, wrapped in
my cocoon of pain and
lonelyness.
I know I've done a terrible
thing to you. Something you'll
never forgive me for.
I wish I could change that,
but I can't
I feel so pathetic and ugly
layi
ng here, waiting for you...
Everyday I stare up at the
cracks in the ceiling and
all I can think about it
how unfair it all is
...
The doctor came today.
He told me I could go
home for a short stay.
It's not that I'm getting
better.
It's just that this may be
my last chance...
I think you know what I
mean...
Even so, I'm glad to be
coming home. I've missed you
terribly.
But I'm afraid james.
I'm afraid you don't really want
me to come home.
Whenever you come to see me,
I can tell how hard it
is on you...
I don't know if you hate
me or pity me...
Or maybe I just disgust
you...
I'm sorry about that.
When I first learned that I
was going to die, i just
didn't want to accept it.
I was so angry all the
time and I struck out at
everyone I loved most.
Especially you James.
That's why I understand if you
do hate me.
But I want you to know
this, James
I'll always love you.
Even though oui life together
had to end like this, I
still wouldn't trade it for
the world.
We had some wonderful years
together.
Well, this letter has gone on
too long so I'll say
goodbye.
I told the nurse to give
this to you after i'm
gone.
That means that as you read
this, I'm already dead.
I can't tell you to remember
me, but I can't bear for
you to forget me.
These last few years since I
became ill... I'm sorry for
what I did to you, did
to us...
You've given me so much and
I haven't been able to
return a single thing.
That's why I want you to
live for yourself now, do
what's best for you,
James.
James...
You made me happy...
在我无尽的梦境里，我看见了那座小镇：寂静岭。
你答应过我哪一天要带我去那里，但是，你从来没有实现你的诺言。
现在，我一个人在那里，在“我们的地方”，等着你……等待你来看望我……但是，你决不会来的……
于是，我继续我的等待，被我的痛苦与孤独深深地包围起来……
我知道，我深深伤害了你，你是绝对不会原谅我了……
我希望我可以改变这个事实，但是，我却无力挽回……
我无助地企求着你的怜悯，躺在那里，等待着你……
每一天，我盯着天棚上的裂痕，我所想到的只是为什么这一切都如此不公平……
医生今天来了，他告诉我，今天我可以回家呆一小会儿。这并不是说我身体状况好了起来，这只是意味着，这是我最后的机会了。或许……你知道我是什么意思吧……
即便如此，我也非常高兴我要回家了。我是如此的想你……
但是，我很害怕，JAMES，我很害怕你并不是真的希望我回家来。
无论什么时候你来看我，我都可以感受得到，你是多么的困苦……
我不知道，你到底是恨我还是怜悯我……或许，我就是令你生厌……
真是对不起你啊……
当我第一次知道我要死去的时候，我只是不想接受这个事实。我每时每刻都非常的愤怒，而这些愤怒也波及到了我所爱的一切，特别是你，我的JAMES。
这就是我理解你憎恨我的原因。但是，我希望你了解，JAMES，我将会一直深爱着你……
虽然，我们在一起的日子就要这样结束了，但是，我并不感叹老天的无情，毕竟，我们在一起度过了如此美好的那些岁月。
哎……这封信写的如此之长……我……该说……再见了……
我告诉护士在我死后把这封信交给你。这意味着，你读到它的时候，我已经弃你远去了。
我并不要求你记住我，但是，我无法忍受自己被你遗忘。。。
自从我生病的这几年以来……对于我自己对你……对我们……所犯下的罪过，很感内疚……
你给了我那么多……而我……却连一点点的回报也无法给你……
这是我告诉你，为自己而勇敢生活下去的原因，全力去争取吧，我心爱的JAMES……
JAMES……
是你……赐予了我幸福……
