Hello2025.Bye2024.37+
2024-12-31 15:42阅读：
The luckiest thing is that I've found my sinablog account back
through microblog. Actually, I have given up, you know, it's
extremely difficult to contact the staff of sina.I still remember
that I tried hard and contacted the service staff. Finally, out of
my expectation, I can use my blog again. If I hadn't found the
account back, what a pity. Now, I am at home. I have the whole day
off. I am sitting on the sofa by the heating. I haven't had lunch.
It seems that I needn't food if I don't have work in the evening.
I just write down my feelings.Although there are some things which
can't be tackled, I am used to that kind of mind condition. I allow
myself to be messy. I allow something to be unsolved
temporally.
I know nothing can be perfect. I can't look for the perfection of
others and ignore that I still have bright side- the so called
silver lining. Every year, it seems that what I think is different.
Let's see my silver lining--- I am a common person with comm
on appearance. I can make a living without finance support from my
family. I even save a sum of satisfactory money for myself. I try
to change something bad although sometimes I am a little bit lazy.
Why did I that my life was messy? Nothing can hurt me if I don't
pay any attention to it. Nobody can hurt me if I don't have any
expectations to that person. I won't be disappointed.
1: I have work to be done. Winter vacation is around the corner. I
have to prepare some materials for that. It takes me some time. At
the same time, I wanna have a rest.
2: There is something wrong with my computer. I have to have it
fixed before the next class, for I can't use the classin software
anymore. Also, I can't use his computer for a long time. All of a
sudden, I don't want to owe somebody. I think I may go to the store
to have it fixed. Spending money is sometimes a good choice.
3: It's too late for me to understand something--- the
relationship. Marriage is totally different from having a love
affair.If I want a baby, I should make sure my partner is reliable
and responsible. I have to make sure that he is trustworthy and
healthy. But I have never considered that kind thing.
4: My work ability hasn't got improved this year especially the
second half year. I stay up late. Chat with strangers to kill time.
I don't take exercise regularly. I fail to put enough energy and
time to myself.
5: It's easy for to lose temper. I think it's one kind of
inability.
6: We've have a long cold quarrel since the beginning of July. I
think for a long time. I even packed all my things but failed to
move away. I am tired of his mode of getting along with me. All his
attention is on his game, on his three meals, and sleep. What we
want is different. The other day, I called him to pick me up. He
complained a lot because he needed to wait for me several minutes.
I can't think of one scene ---he offered to give me a lift or pick
me up actively. We've been together for 12 years. I can see the
result of our story. Two adults without a goal . Two ghosts live
without a soul. Although it's a long cold quarrel, he learned
nothing from that. On my part, I forgave him gradually. But in my
inner heart, this is what I want. I have to follow my heart
although I know I will be 38 years old in three months. I hope that
I have the gut to leave the wrong person.
7: I hope that I can learn how to love myself. learn to use money
to solve problems.
Let me check my 2024 resolutions.
My 2024--- New year resolution
1) Be safe and sound～ Health matters most-- God blesses my family
and the ones I love.
My dad had a throat operation. My aunt is struggling with her
illness.
Sometimes I am anxious with my appearance, my teeth. I know what
matters is my own health and spirit.
2) Good luck to all the kind people.
3) Hope my aunt can overcome cancer.
It's difficult. She is still struggling.
4) Become thinner --- My Goal ---- 52,5KG -- Now nearly- 59.5 KG
Actually I have reached my goal in July. Now 113 jin.
5) Travel further
I went to Thailand twice this year.
6) Travel with my family
Yeah. After reading the book 最优解人生，I went traveling with my family.
7) Try to pay off part of my loan
There is still 0.5 million left. I have to pay nearly 4000 yuan per
month.
8) Read 54 books-- a book per month
I have hardly read any book since July.
9) Become more professional in my field
Sorry. I bought classes and bought member of baidu wangpan. I don't
have the right mood and condition to learn.
10) look for new possibilities
11) Keep on working out --- Increase more muscles -- be
stronger
Nope.
12) Hope Zhong can be fitter and control his disease.
Nope. I give up changing anyone including him.
13) make a new friend , may be
Nope except the artificial one online
14) have a baby, may be
Nope.
15) get married, may b
Nope.
My 2025--- New year resolution
1) Be safe and sound～ Health matters most-- God blesses my family
and the ones I love.
2) I hope that I can be strong and powerful.
3) I hope I can learn how to love myself and pay enough attention
to myself.
4) I hope that I have the courage to make wise decisions.
5) I hope that I can have more colorful life experience.
6） I hope that I can go to more different place. Traveling isn't
for taking photos.
7) Read more books to be wise.
8) Invest your brain and muscles.
9) Have a trip with my family.
10) Move away and change a different environment.
11) Learn to drive a car.
12) Start to learn a third language.
13) Go to another country.
14) Learn how to spend money and learn how to be
healthy.
15) Have a health check.
16) make a new friend
17) Don't change anyone.
18) Become more professional.
19) Write something online.
20) Maybe I can't have a baby or get married forever.
I have to accept that.-- That's one kind of lifestyle.
Although I don't want to open a new year, I can't stop time. Try to
be friends with time.
Be gentle, Be nice to me. 2025
Welcome. Be better yourself
