[HP同人][未授权翻译][连载]Ashes of armageddon战争之灰<一>
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原著：Emily Waters 译者：-韩嫣-
BOOK ONE
第一部
The Dark Half
暗之半至
1. Misery
<一> 苦难
He woke up in a grungy cell, permeated by smell of decay and
human waste. For a few minutes he hadn't realized where he was, but
then, as despair assaulted, he remembered. Azkaban.
他于一间狭小肮脏的囚室内醒来，空气中渗透着腐败物与人类排泄物混合的气息。起初几分钟他并未能认出自己所在之处，但很快，伴随着袭来的绝望，他终于记起，阿兹卡班。
The effect of Dementors was unmistakable. Then again, misery was a
familiar state of mind, ever since that day...
摄魂怪的影响他不可能错认。而后再一次，从那天起他的大脑就已熟悉的那种熟悉的痛苦再度袭来……
Severus Snape smiled bitterly. A fitting end for the spy of the
Order of Phoenix, he thought. He glanced down at his prison gown
and grit his teeth. The fabric was worn out, and had blood stains
on it- someone else's. The person who had worn the robe before him
was likely long gone, but the dried blood remained, reminding
Severus of his ultimate destiny.
西弗勒斯·斯内
普苦笑了一下。他作为凤凰社间谍的生涯已经结束了，他想。他扫了一眼身上的狱袍，咬紧了牙关。那织物已经磨损，且带着别人的血迹。这件狱袍的前主人大概早已丧命，但干涸的血迹仍然留存，提醒着西弗勒斯他最终的命运。
After waking up from the five-year-long coma induced by Nagini's
venom, Severus Snape was not surprised to find himself transferred
to Azkaban, or to be sentenced to death. He was only surprised that
he had lived this long – after what he had done.
在从纳吉尼的毒液引起的5年之久的昏迷中醒来后，西弗勒斯·斯内普并不惊讶自己已经被转移到阿兹卡班，或者被判处死刑。他只是惊讶于，他仍能够存活这么久
- 在他做了那件事之后。
Albus, he thought, and buried his face in his arms. He had killed
him. He had killed him... He would have wept, but he had given up
that unnecessary habit over two decades ago.
阿不思，他想，将他的脸埋在自己胸前。他杀了他。他杀了他......他也许本该会为此哭泣，但他二十年前已经放弃了这种无用的习惯。
It did not matter that Albus had requested it, or that it was
necessary – the guilt at his action was overwhelming to the point
of faintness, almost to the point of death. Severus groaned quietly
and shuddered with dread at the memory.
这本不碍事，是阿不思曾要求他这样做的，或者说，这本是必要的
----但他的行为导致的负罪感仍旧铺天盖地，几乎到了可以致死的地步。西弗勒斯在寂静中呻吟着，在记忆中恐惧地战栗。
Sleep, he thought. Even though his sleep in Azkaban had not been
not restful, and was punctuated by terrors, real and imagined, it
was still preferable to being awake. At least, while he slept, he
did not have to be in control of his own body and mind. He much
rather preferred to ride out this terrors and fears, rather then
fighting them, as he did, almost automatically, whenever he was
awake.
睡眠，他想。即使他在阿兹卡班的睡眠并不放松，并会不时被那些真实的和想象中的恐怖所打断，但这与清醒相比仍是最好的选择。至少，他睡觉的时候，他没有必要控制自己的身体和心灵。他更乐意于驾驭这种恐怖和畏惧，而不是向他如今所做的那样与它们斗争，这样做几乎是自动的，只要他醒着。
Nothing hurt as much as the memory of that murder – or mercy
killing. Nothing. Not even the fact that nobody believed him. Not
Minerva McGonagall, not the Ministry, not the Order.
没有什么能够造成与那次谋杀的记忆相匹敌的伤害-或者说,那次仁慈的杀戮,没有.即使那没有一个人相信他的实事.无论米勒娃·麦格还是魔法部，又抑或凤凰社的不信任，都无法与那造成的创伤匹敌。
He remembered the last hearing, that took place a few weeks ago. Or
was it months ago? He was no longer certain.
他想起了上次听证会，那是在几星期前？或是几个月前？哦，他记不清楚了。
“So, Severus Snape, you claim that you were under orders from Albus
Dumbledore himself to cause his death?” Percy Weasley asked with an
unpleasant smile on his face.
“那么，西弗勒斯·斯内普，你确信是阿不思·邓不利多自己下令，令你对他造成杀戮的？”珀西·韦斯莱问道，脸上带着令人不悦的笑容。
“Yes, Sir,” Severus answered impassively. “He was dying from the
cursed object that he had touched previously. He thought it would
be more dignified a death... and he wanted to give me a way to
assure Voldemort's confidence in me that had began to waver at that
point.”
“是的，先生，”西弗勒斯·斯内普面无表情地回答。“作为一个已经背负诅咒的人，他正因此走向死亡。他认为如今这样将是更有尊严的一种死法…并且他希望籍此为我打造一条取信于伏地魔的捷径以防止它对我的信任产生动摇。
“I see,” Percy said. “Do you have any proof of that?”
“我了解了，”珀西说。“关于这一切，你能提供任何有效证据吗？”
“I will say the same under Veritaserum,” Severus said
quietly.
“在吐真剂的作用下，我将说出同样的话”西弗勒斯平静地说。
“Of course you will. However, as we all know, you had been...
training to withstand the effects of Veritaserum for quite a
while... is not that right?”
“你当然会。然而,正如我们所知,你曾经…… 接受过一段时间的抵抗吐真剂效果培训，不是吗?”
“Yes,” Severus conceded. “However...”
“是的，”西弗勒斯确认道，“然而……”
“Legilimency seems to be wasted on you as well, given your skill at
Occlumency,” Percy said grimly. “And as for a Pensive - we all know
that you are able to generate false memories rather skillfully. You
even fooled Voldemort on several occasions... Yes or no?”
“摄神取念对于你高超的大脑封闭术技能而言似乎同样是种浪费”珀西认真地说。“至于将抽取的记忆放入冥想盆中读取——哦，我们都知道你能非常熟练的产生错误记忆以误导他人，你甚至成功的愚弄伏地魔多次，对吗？”
“Yes!” Severus snapped impatiently. “What do you want from
me?”
“是的，”西弗勒斯不耐烦地抢答道，“那你们想对我怎么样！”
“What I want,” Percy said slowly and unkindly, “is some sort of
actual proof. Something material. Did Albus Dumbledore ever tell of
this to anyone else? Did he leave behind a letter, or a message?
Did he name a Secret Keeper?”
“我所想要的，”珀西缓慢而不客气地说，“是一些确切的证据。一些确凿的证明。阿不思邓不利多可曾将这件事告诉另外的什么人吗？可曾留下一封信件或者一条信息？他是否曾指定过一位有确切姓名的秘密保守者？”
“No,” Severus admitted. “He didn't. We had considered this – and
decided that it was too risky. Voldemort was too powerful, and his
influence extended too far. Hogwarts was crawling with his spies.
We thought it best not to have any evidence of our plan.”
“不,”西弗勒斯承认。“他没有。 我们考虑过这-但当时觉得这样做太危险。伏地魔太强大,他的影响力扩展太远。
霍格沃茨爬满了他的间谍。我们认为，最好不要留下任何足以使我们证据我们的计划泄露的信息。”
Percy laughed unpleasantly. “How convenient. And now you expect us
to believe you and spare your life?”
珀西令人不快地笑起来。“你这罪脱得实在简单，死无对证啊。那么现在你期望我们相信你，饶你一命？”
“No,” Severus said impassively. “I expect you to kill me. But
perhaps years from now, you will believe the truth – and come to
believe that Albus Dumbledore, the greatest wizard of all time,
died a hero, and not a victim to a greasy-haired, mediocre potions
teacher.”
“不,”西弗勒斯面无表情地说。
“我希望你杀了我。但也许多年以后,你会相信事实——开始相信阿不思·邓布利多,当代最伟大的魔法师,是作为一个英雄过世,而不是作为一个头发油腻，平庸的魔药老师的受害者。”
Severus was startled by the sound of the door opening. He saw a
guard, then another. Then, Percy Weasley. And then, he saw someone
else.
西弗勒斯被开门的声音吓了一跳。 他看见一个卫兵,然后另一个。 然后,珀西·韦斯莱。 然后,他看见了另一个人……
Severus looked at the young angry face with despair, not wanting to
believe who he was seeing. The dark hair cut short, lips pressed
into a disdainful thin line... and the eyes. The green eyes were
incredibly dark, but also hauntingly familiar and nostalgically
beautiful, in spite of the fact that they belonged to that...
twenty-three year old person, who hated him more than anyone else
in the world.
西弗勒斯看着那张年轻而愤怒的脸,绝望而不愿相信他看到的是谁。那人黑色的头发被剪短,嘴唇抿成一条倨傲的细线……
以及那眼睛。绿色的眼睛中蕴藏着难以置信的黑暗,但也同样饱含难以忘怀的熟悉和怀旧的美丽,尽管在事实上,他们属于…
那个23岁的人,那个比世界上任何人都痛恨他的男子。
“Good morning, Severus,” Harry said quietly, the thin smile never
leaving his face.
“早上好,西弗勒斯。”哈利轻声说,浅淡的微笑从未离开过他的脸庞。
Severus nodded slightly, unsurprised and untroubled by his lack of
formality. Over the last few months, he had gotten used to everyone
calling him by his first name. “Mr. Potter,” Severus said with just
a touch of sarcasm in his voice. “If you are here to gloat, I
congratulate you on your timing.”
西弗勒斯微微点了点头，对于他礼仪上的欠缺并未感到任何惊奇和困惑。在过去的几个月里，他已经习惯大家直呼他的名字。 “波特先生，
”西弗勒斯说，声音中带着淡淡的嘲讽。 “如果你来到这里是为了表达你的幸灾乐祸，把我不得不祝贺您选对了时间。”
Harry tilted his head and looked at him thoughtfully. “Gloat,”
Harry repeated with amusement. “No, I'm only here for benign
reasons. I am saving your life.”
哈利歪着头，若有所思地看着他。 “幸灾乐祸， ”哈利找乐子似地重复。 “怎么会呢，我来到这里只是为你好。我在救你的命。”
“Oh?” Severus asked, almost peacefully. The dark glow in Harry's
eyes did not inspire confidence. “And why would you do such a
thing?”
“哦？ ”西弗勒斯几乎是平静地问。哈利的眼睛在黑暗中的光芒并没有激发出他的信心。 “你可有这么做的原因么？”
“I made a promise,” Harry told him. “Or to be precise, I took a
vow. An Unbreakable Vow.”
“我做出过一个承诺， ”哈利告诉他。 “或者更精确地说，我发过誓。一个牢不可破誓言。 ”
“To Albus,” Severus whispered breathlessly. “He made you
swear...”
“对阿不思， ”西弗勒斯窒息地低语。 “他让你发誓... ”
“Yes,” Harry cut him off. “He made me swear that if it ever became
possible to save your life, without losing mine, I would do so. I
guess the old idiot never anticipated the possibility of you
actually turning against him and killing him... in spite of me
trying to warn him about you, for years and years...”
“是的， ” Harry打断了他。
“他让我发誓，如果我有可能挽救你的生命而这样做并不会使我丧生，我就要这样做。我猜那个老白痴，从来没有预料到你有可能背叛他，甚至杀害他.......尽管多年来我一直试图警告他......”
Severus shook his head in disbelief. So that was the last
contingency plan of Albus Dumbledore. To entrust
Harry-bloody-Potter with rescuing his nemesis. He might have
laughed, but the stern look on Harry's face convinced him that it
was not the best idea.
西弗勒斯难以置信地摇了摇头。所以这是阿不思·邓布利多最后的应急计划。委托哈里·该死的·波特挽救他的克星。他也许早该笑了，但哈利的脸严肃的表情使他确信，这绝不是个好主意。
“We are invoking an ancient law,” Harry said firmly. “Sub Corona
Vendere – You may or may not be familiar with it. In exchange for
your life being spared, you are becoming mine. My property. Nothing
more than that. Not the most dignified way to live for the rest of
your life, but ... well...they say beggars can't be choosers. In
this case, killers can't either.”
“我们正在调用一个古老的法律，”哈利坚定地说。
“战俘赎买——你也许对这个很陌生。为了你能在余生中依然存活，你将成为我的财产。没有更多。这对于你的余生而言并不会是活得最体面的方式，但...他们说乞丐不能挑肥拣瘦。在这种情况下，杀人犯也一样不能。
“
Slowly Severus nodded, the reality of the situation beginning to
dawn on him. “I decline,” he said quickly, as politely as possible.
“I appreciate the offer, Mr. Potter – but...”
西弗勒斯慢慢点点头，开始评估他如今的处境。 “我拒绝了， ”他尽可能礼貌地说。 “我很欣赏你的报价，波特先生 -
但是......”
“I am afraid you do not have the option to decline,” Harry said, a
little sharply. “I am not here to consult you. I am here to inform
you of my actions, as a courtesy. That is all.”
“我恐怕你没有选择拒绝的权利， ”哈利有点尖锐地表达着。
“我不是在这里请教你的意见。我在这里是要通知你我的下一步行动，仅仅作为一种礼貌。这就是你要接受的一切。 “
Severus felt his entire body stiffen. “Mr. Potter – may I have a
word with you alone, please?”
西弗勒斯觉得他的整个身体都僵硬了。 “波特先生 - 我想和你单独谈谈，可以吗？ “
Harry nodded to Percy and the guards.
哈利对珀西和警卫点了点头。
“Minister, are you sure that's wise?” One of the guards
protested.
“部长，你肯定这么做是明智的吗？”一名警卫抗议道。
Minister, Severus realized with a start. Twenty-three year old
Harry Potter is a Minister... not the Minister of Magic, surely?
Severus uttered a silent prayer to all the gods of the wizarding
world, hoping that he had misheard.
部长，西弗勒斯意识到，二十三年岁的哈利·波特是一个部长...不会是魔法部部长，不是么？西弗勒斯发出一声默默祈祷，向魔法世界所有的神，希望他听错。
Harry nodded to the guards dismissively, and they left, Percy
Weasley trailing behind. Harry remained, standing over Severus, who
was still seated on his cot.
哈利再次轻蔑地向警卫点点头，他们离开了，珀西·韦斯莱尾随其后。 哈利则留下，站在西弗勒斯面前，后者则仍然坐在他的小凳上。
“What is it?” Harry demanded..
“你要说什么？ ”哈利问道。
“At the Shrieking Shack, when I thought I was dying, I had
attempted to impart some of my memories to you,” he said with
utmost awkwardness. “To try and explain...”
“在尖叫棚屋，当我以为我要死了，我曾试图传递一些我的记忆给你，”他无比尴尬地说。 “要试图解释......”
“That you did it for the greater good.” Harry cut him off abruptly.
“That Dumbledore had asked you to kill him, so that you could keep
your cover as a spy.” Harry smiled disdainfully. “I know, Severus.
We had all viewed the pensive. I had believed its contents at one
time – but not anymore. I have come to the conclusion that anything
that proceeds from you – whether words, thoughts, or memories – is
a lie.”
“那时你这样做是为了更大的利益。 ” Harry突然打断他。 “邓布利多令你杀了他，所以你可以保持你作为间谍的伪装。
”哈利轻蔑地笑了。 “我知道，西弗勒斯。我们都观看了冥想盆中的记忆。我也曾在一段时间内相信其中的内容 -
但现在不是了。我已得出结论，你所提供的一切-无论是文字，思想，或是记忆-都是一段谎言。”
“In that case, I truly do not understand,” Severus said slowly.
“Why not let me die? Why not simply permit me to refuse your offer?
Surely, the Unbreakable Vow will not penalize you if I decline your
assistance of my own free will.”
“在这种情况下，我真的不明白， ”西弗勒斯慢慢地说。
“你为什么不让我死？为什么不能简单地允许我拒绝你的提议？当然，牢不可破的誓言不会惩罚你，如果我拒绝你的帮助的决定来自于我自己的自由意志。”
Harry gazed at him with an unreadable smile. The darkness in his
eyes became even more intense. “The Vow would permit it, if you
were sincere. But you are not.” Harry said with confidence. He
walked up to Severus and brought his fingers to the man's chin.
Severus shuddered at the touch, as it sent a sharp, dark jolt of
power throughout his entire body. “I can see it in your eyes,”
Harry told him. “I know that look. The look of someone who is lost
without without a Master.” Harry's thumb stroked Severus' cheekbone
absently, indifferently, as if his face were an inanimate object.
“I've seen that look before.”
哈利带着难以读懂的笑容凝视着他。他的眼睛在黑暗中变得更加锋锐。 “如果你是真诚的，誓言将允许这种行为。但你不是。
“哈利自信地说。他走近西弗勒斯，并用他的手指轻抬男子的下巴。西弗勒斯在触摸下打了一个寒颤，这触碰带来了一个刺激，这令黑暗的力量在他的整个身体中冲突盘旋。
“我可以在你的眼睛中看到它，”哈利告诉他。 “我知道，看看吧。看看这个失去他了主人的人。
“哈利心不在焉地用拇指漠然抚摸西弗勒斯的颧骨，仿佛他的脸是一个没有生命的物体。 “我曾见过你这副模样。 ”
Suddenly, Severus found himself speechless. He wanted to ask -
“where” or “when” - but by the time he had regained his ability to
speak, Harry was already gone.
突然，西弗勒斯发现自己无法发声。他想问问 - “在哪里”或“何时” - 但当他恢复了他的说话的能力的时候，哈利已经走了。
To Be Continued...
待续……
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